I know its been a very long time since I wrote something in this blog. Well, I shall fill up with the details of my messed up life on a later date, or maybe not.
Lets come
to the present. Today. The 20th of September. Tomorrow is my birthday. And the
truth is I'm very unhappy and very lonely. I'm in this city away from home
where I used to have friends. I was happy to come back here. But now I'm very
lonely here. Most of my friends have moved over to other places. The rest who
are around are busy with their own life (i.e married) or their career. No one
seems to have time to spend with me on this Sunday before my birthday. I tried
making friends with my new colleagues. But somehow I take a long time to make
friends and I don’t know if we connect or not. I don't have anyone to go out
for lunch or dinner with or go to a pub with. No one to go out for movies with.
This is such a lonely lonely life. I'm getting depressed.
Its been
such a long time since I cut a birthday cake. No one to get me one. Now I'm
really thinking of buying a birthday cake for myself. Then I would have to cut
it all by myself which would again make me more miserable. I miss those days
when my parents used to throw a party for me inviting all the children in the
neighbourhood. And those days when my friends used to knock my door at 12
midnight and give me birthday bumps and make me cut a surprise birthday cake.
And then they would smear my face with the chocolate (it would always be
chocolate!) icing from the cake. I really really miss those days. Would I ever
get it back again?
I feel
there is no one in my life who can make this one day in my life special for
me...
