Dec 19, 2010

Love in Retrospect

I have met him only once. I have spoken to him only a few words. I acted uninterested when he showed interest in me.  But now, I am interested. I took such a long time to make up my mind. Alas, it was too late.

I shall never know what he really thought about me. I shall never know if he cared for me, if he found me interesting, if he was attracted to me, if he could have been the one. I shall never know what music he liked, which movies he watched, what books he read, what drinks he drank. I shall never know how it would be to make love to him, how it would be to kiss him, how it would be to hold his hands. Dammit, I shall not even know whether I stood a chance. It gives me a sharp pain in my breast. If only, I was not so timid. If only, I had conversed with him. If only, I had shown my true self to him. If only, he hadn't got engaged so soon.

Is this love? Or is the feeling you have when you realise that the stone you threw away was actually a diamond?

6 comments:

  1. Hey there! Thanks for checking out my blog! Just read this posting of yours. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and in tough times, I find comfort in that. I think that if this didn't work out, something better will be in the future for you.

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  2. "Or is the feeling you have when you realize that the stone you threw away was actually a diamond?" Love that line, and it's a great way to describe that feeling. I don't know if I would consider that feeling love- I think it's the feeling of a missed opportunity that you probably won't get back.

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  3. It's just a feeling, maybe, maybe, that was the right guy...fret not...there are many more fish in the sea...I like this blog...will be back for more... :)

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  4. @ christine, trish and caterpillar : i like all your ideas.. that there is something better... even i feel so. and everything happens for a reason.

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  5. Awww, that is just so sad! I guess we all have our share of wistful thinking..wen v dint do something n den regretting not doing anything abt it while we still had the chance! I was always of the opinion that regretting NOT doing something was anyday better than regretting having done something,u know. Ok, I don't think I'm helping here, but all I can say is that everything in this world happens for a reason. Who knows, u were meant to lose a diamond only to realize the importance of one and not let go when another opportunity comes by. Hoping everything works out for you. I know how much it means to find THE one..

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  6. hi sharon, nice to read ur comment. it was not a very serious thing. but i felt if i had made use of the oppurtunity, i wud ve known which side the balance wud've shifted.

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